ok, So I officially made it through the move, the cats are still reeling from it, and Maxwell gets lost when he goes upstairs, and doesn't know how to get down. I'm tired, tired, tired. I have homework that I want/need to get done, and still, more boxes to unpack. Sometimes I get angry about it though. I'm angry that he's not here to help. TO help me decide where to put things, which drawer he wants "that thing" to go in or "this thing" goes where? I'm trying to put things away the best I can, so it makes sense to him when he comes home, but I know that no matter where I put stuff, no matter how much I try to determine the logical spot for it, he's still not going to know where crap is when he gets home. I'm angry about that. I wish he were here to help me, not because I can't do it alone, but because I DON'T WANT TO. I'm tired, I am sure that I've mentioned it before, but I am. I am attempting to do a room at a time. Kitchen done, except for decorating, and all the empty boxes on the floor. Not to mention that the floor needs a good scrubbing! The people here before me were DIRTY. They did a decent cleaning job, but, not to my standards, I need to pour a gallon of bleach on the floor and mop with that so the grout gets cleaned. Then clean it with normal cleaning supplies. I am just ranting at this point. Tech keeps talking about all this stuff he wants to do when he gets home, and I am going to be so thankful when he is here to help. It'll be a much needed break. Well, I'm through complaining right now, I'm off to go organize the bathroom, then maybe I'll go dump that bleach on the floor... anyone have any suggestions for getting grout super clean?
OH BUT, I am super super happy that we've closed and we are officially into our first home!!!
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Good luck with unpacking everything, you will get there in the end! I have a move coming up at the end of the year which will involve my new 5 month old daughter by then and nooooo husband around so I am sure I will have my angry moments too!
Good morning! I've been enjoying your thoughts whenever you post them, and it's relieving that, after nearly 12 years, it's not "just me." Though I used to consider myself weak. I have experienced many days of the anger and frustration you describe here, wishing my Sapper was here to help, only to realize (especially after 4 deployments and a trip to Korea) that he's not the same, and I'm not the same, and we don't operate together in the same way that we used to. Some days are better than others, and yoga and meditation keep me on an even keel-or at least more even than I would be without them. So, I now just make the "command decisions" without him, fully expecting him to change some things when he comes home and gets to go through his "nesting phase!"
Don't be too angry :( . My hubby was here with our move and I still unpacked with little help from him and he still asks me where things are. It will all come together nicely soon enough. Then you'll be wondering where to put all the stuff you collect over the years :)
I bet the shorter drive time to work has been nice this week!!!! Miss you!!!!
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