Scared

I'm scared of his return on RNR. Scared things will be different. I am not sure why I am scared, but I am. I am afraid things will be different, that we will not connect the way did before this deployment. Things will be different. We have both changed, scenery has changed, I have a job now, I have friends now, I have this life, that a has only included my husband in a box and on the other end of a crackly phone. That scares the crap out of me, and I am not sure how to deal with it. He is so excited to come home, I'm excited for him to come home. He says he's not worried about anything, except how I react.... no pressure there right? I am just feeling strange, needy, upset, anxious, but I'm happy and desperately want to see my husband, I miss him so much that it hurts me to my core. So then why then, do I feel this anxiety? This fear that my hubby is coming home and things will be so strange, so different. I don't like this feeling, I don't like it at all.